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[07 Aug 2005|12:45am] |
Hey Sluts and Lovers :D I've created a new LJ for my amusement! so comment on ![[info]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif) _fadedlies and I'll add you once again!
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| Summer |
[19 Jun 2005|01:02am] |
bored... I really have nothing to do >.>;;; King's Nite... fundraisers.... blah... yeap... bored.. lol
King's Nite Harmon 27th and 28th....
peace and love <3
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| bored... |
[11 Jun 2005|02:21pm] |
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lol... booya! -.-;;
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| mock trial |
[08 May 2005|09:39am] |
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omg... i miss yall...
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| roses |
[03 May 2005|08:14pm] |
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rose petals.... it once lively red, but once it was plucked it wilted...
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| time |
[19 Apr 2005|07:40pm] |
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maybe 11 months was the time...
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| my façade |
[16 Apr 2005|09:39pm] |
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i find myself more black and white than ever. the once crystal clear water has gone murky and you cannot really see anything... the laughter that i once heard and all with such glee, are gone... far far far, so far away from me. now you ponder if the things that has happened is right, or has it gone totally wrong. heh. the façade of happiness gleams through.
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| lost count... |
[23 Mar 2005|11:51pm] |
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i'm lost. what started as a friendship in the room of god, from there something blossomed... and i cannot say if it's good or bad... but what i give is that, the time is growing closer, and do i care to doubt myself and worry? or just let go of everything. i'll give a glee and a moan...
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| side track... |
[20 Mar 2005|07:59pm] |
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i'm aware that koreans (not all) are cool... monica you rock!
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| [In An Angry Fit Much. Part Duex.] |
[26 Feb 2005|09:19pm] |
lovely images... that bring memories to a new light...
a lovely place... with foot washers...
her and her... against the music... or rather the wall...
inspired by the one and only...
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| [I just sit here...] |
[18 Feb 2005|02:46am] |
i sit here thinking...
thoughts... are about everyone...
yet they fade.
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| [An Old Letter] |
[10 Feb 2005|10:36pm] |
Well, this is a rather old letter given to me... but I still kept it because for the future that I knew that was going to come.
[Letter Start//]
I don’t know what to say, I'm sitting here with no words to write I cant even begin to tell you how special I’ve felt over the last couple of days, I’m upset and touched at the same time because I love how I’ve been able to reach out and touch your heart, but I’m also upset that I have given you this feeling without warning. I’d like to apologize and say that I will never hurt you, you are to special to me and always will be.
I'd just like to add that if I ever can and ever have the power I want to see you once again, I feel I have a special bond with you, a bond that I don’t want to just be a feeling, I want to spend a day walking in the park and just being with you, and maybe sharing are first kiss, I want to know if we have something, but if not I want you to know I’m always with you forever.............
[//Letter End]
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| [I...] |
[09 Feb 2005|09:52pm] |
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i would like some cookies...
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| [Bitchy Much. Part One.] |
[08 Feb 2005|01:11am] |
in all honesty i can say that i've been a slut, a bitch, an asshole, a cheater, a picturewhore, a believer, a hater, a lover, a make-believer, a this, a that, a duh, a dah, a hmm, a ha, and a yeah... what can you say you've been?!
heh, i've met so many people in the course of 16 years... and i can say i've had some and lost some, lol... quite funny actually. I'm bored so I'll make this a fucked up picture post... enjoy... bitch :D
looky it's SSBM~ ha.
( OH! CLICK ME! CLICK ME! )
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| [Eternally Yours...] |
[06 Feb 2005|12:11am] |
my feelings for you are perpetual, yet... are yours?
everyday... every single day... there isn't a moment that i don't long for you to be by myside... yeah that may seem selfish... but maybe i am... is it wrong that i want you here by myside?
yes. your voice is gentle, sweet, caring, loving... and yet i need more, i long for your touch once again... looking at pictures when we were together, doesn't really make things easier...
i don't really want to hold unto promises... these are the times when you can't hold your tears back, you go all silent, and feel alone.
i sigh. i tear. i don't want to continue on with this.
so i don't end with a smile.
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| [Set to Conquer] |
[01 Feb 2005|12:13am] |
i have my heart ready to go...
i've dreamt of myself conquering many things in this world, and wanting to live each day with smile and a friend by myside and a significant one in the other. although i did come to a conclusion that it is going to take more than dreaming to do this all. i've opened many pathways and doors through my personality and life, and yet i still feel that nobody still understands me... is it for the fact that i may be holding something back? but what? i've let everything go, i've open up... but why am i not satisfied? is it the feeling that because the people that surrounded me changed? except for a selected few. people did change... they've changed, i've changed, the prospective of the old self has faded away... what others felt and saw before... is gone. they don't say it, but you know that you feel it...
people go...
and people stay...
i've came to the conclusion that nothing is ever going to bring them back or me back to things were before, because i know i don't want to go back... and i doubt that they would want to... but what did make us come together and who we are in the beginning wasn't it the old feeling? but now why are we reluctant to go back? annoyance levels gone arise, sadness shows, and everything else dies down..
it's funny that the only person that understands me... is me... and yet i still confuse myself with so many things... is it because i'm tired of everything? i often question myself what if things never changed... will life cease to exist as we know it? or will it move on in a circular motion... repeating the process of life and the way it goes over and over and over again...
then i do believe that someone did taught me well... and i thank him for that... because if people cannot see through me already... and beyond what i don't give them, then it shows that i am hiding it well.
i won't sit quietly here... but i will there... because if you look through my eyes you'll see that it's quite lively in here.
i just have to get over the fact that people do change... even the people you thought to believe and trust... it makes you wonder if you'll ever that close again... and if they'll ever find the real you...
because... i want people to know who i am...
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| [HI! HI! Puffy AmiYumi!] |
[09 Jan 2005|01:48pm] |
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well, maybe i should smile now... no wait... i'll wait for a little while more.
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| [Oh. You.] |
[08 Jan 2005|10:41pm] |
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Ha. Fuck you. smile.
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| [Time Needed] |
[08 Jan 2005|10:26pm] |
for so long... i've always wanted something, i've waited, i've anticipated, i've desired... now that it's within my hands, why do i feel like i'm losing it's grip? and yet... i haven't lost the desire and the love, then why?
the doors are yet again closed... although they are not locked... they are just waiting to be opened... the secrets within are just wanting burst...
i'll just wait here and cry for the time being...
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